Spirits seem to always be within distance
they hear when I weep and can sense the danger
around the corner when I am blind to it
what are their names?
I want to know so much about them.
Time after time, they rescue me from the steel jaws of death
even when his teeth are in the very mirror of my existence
why me?
Who am I to deserve such guardians after creating so much chaos
and living in so much deceit?
I have lived with that question
hanging from the cobwebs of my mind for so long
hardly even giving thank
I'm in so much fear of it because I never could grasp
an understanding of it
but today, I had no choice but to know they exist
and are at work carrying me through life
and loving me even when I'm hating myself.
Today I can no longer take it with a grain of salt.
today I want to know those spirits
so I can talk to them
embrace them
sing to them and give them thanks
so much thanks