Many of us in 'uncovery' go through a process of recovering our original selves. What we were before things went so awry in our lives is reclaimed or 'recovered.' We did not 'reinvent ourselves' on the inside. We have always been good enough. Instead, we disassembled the illusion of brokenness or powerlessness that abuse clouded our consciousness with. Becoming 'powerless' is responsible for giving our power back. And remember, there is One who has all power, that One is God. If God has ALL power, doesn't that mean you don't get any? Does the power belong to you or to God? If you're still 'working the Program," how can God work the Program within you? I suggest that we 'all' need to 'get out of God's way, become 'the hole in the doughnut' so God can 'remove all of our defects of character.' The defects of character are not yours to control after you've become 'entirely' willing to let God remove all defects of character...which stand in the way of our usefulness to God and to our fellows. Let Go, Let God. Surrender. Get out of your own way. Take it Easy.
Our Program is permeated with 'principles before personalities,' but just before other people's personalities, but even before our own personalities.
Here's a mystic question for you: 'Who parted the Red Sea? You, or God?' In the light of this question, consider the following incident.
I'll always remember the day a judge decided to let me out of jail on my own recognizance, that is to say, with no bail required. The prosecutor literally capitulated, raising his voice, saying, "You're Honor! You can't do that! He has five felony convictions!" I have a crystal-clear memory of how flushed and red the prosecutor's face was at that moment. Even a vein in his neck was visibly throbbing! So, I bet you can't guess what the judge said. The judge looked at the prosecutor and said, "Who's the judge? You, or me?" The prosecutor looked totally flustered, fell silent, looked down, and then sat down. Me, I was 'all amazed' and never forgot that someone in the system actually cared about me. The judge parted the red sea of his indignation. God used the judge to send me a Message.
Take what you like and leave the rest. You are free to draw your own conclusions. But for me, I'll say I gave myself jail and that there's no prison wall so thick that God can't get through it.
Eventually, when I became powerless over alcohol, God gave me the 12-Step Program. Then the 12-Step ‘Fellowship’ echoed Grace and gave me God.
The chicken and the egg are One, the beginning and the end. Non-duality is zero; the Beginning AND the End are Zero. Numbers to the right and to the left of Zero are in duality. Look not to the right nor to the left. 'Keep thine eye single to the Glory' of God's Intelligence, and your body will be filled with God's Essence.